There comes a time in your life when you begin to question how your life is going to change when someone leaves. Maybe a relationship becomes rocky or a friendship is coming to an end.
But do you know those people who have just sorta been there? Those people who you’ve never had to question it, they’re just there. Always have been, and you think they always will be..
One phone call, one text message, one knock at the door can change all that in the blink of an eye. It’s amazing how fast your world shifts when that question is placed in your mind.
At 9:30 last night, as I was laying with my son as he fell asleep, mom comes to the door to say that her best friend is on life support, unresponsive. Now, this isn’t just any best friend. This woman has been beside my mother since before they were born. She’s my second mother, my crazy aunt, my confidant, my constant. She is insane and unpredictable, and will never understand how much she means to me. And I think that I kinda just got so used to her being there, I didn’t feel like I had to tell her anymore. It didn’t matter whether we talked once a day or once in 6 months. She was there. And now she wasn’t going to be there anymore. That was it. I hadn’t talked to her in a few weeks, hadn’t seen her in over a year. And now she was gone. I felt sick. I wasn’t going to be able to say goodbye. Or tell her I love her. Or hear her say ” yaya yikes vegetable doup ” one more time.
Thankfully at 11 am I get a message.
A road trip that was planned expecting to end in a funeral, has now turned in to being able to tell this amazing woman how much she means to me. How much better my life is with her in it. Even if she’s far away. My life is better knowing I can call her at any time.
Maybe, just maybe, you should try to picture how you would feel if your “constant” isn’t there any more. Picture it just long enough so that you are reminded it can happen. Be thankful for who you have, because tomorrow they could be gone. I got another chance. Not everyone is that lucky.
Be thankful now. Not full of regret later.