Tonight, I pray: Please pray with me!

Okay, I know on #48 I stated that we do not attend church. I am not changing that statement but please know that this does not mean that we do not pray. In fact, I was raised in a Pentecostal church and know that when 2 or more come in accord our prayers are heard. With 592 followers, I only ask that one of you that follow our blog say this prayer with me.

Dear heavenly father, tomorrow is a test of our faith. We must have faith in a system that once failed not only us but all members of this family. We ask for a peaceful transition. We ask for the love for the children to supersede the feelings of anger and entitlement. We ask for God to be there so that all parties recognize the that He, not man, paves the way to peace. We pray that our family will be safe and that everyone will turn to His guidance in approaching this day. In Jesus’s name, we pray…Amen and Amen

I cannot provide more details than this but I hope, that on faith, you will speak these words with us tonight.

From my grandchildren and I, thank you for joining us on our journey and our prayer!

“Gigi”

 

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Books and Family: Does it get any better?

Look at these four! How blessed am I!?!? I was in the kitchen getting lunch ready and the four children were being very quiet. Scary, huh?! But they were not fighting. They were not destroying the house. They were not into any type of mischief. Nope, they were sitting together doing the one thing that their English major Gigi has prayed that they would love to do….Reading!

All four of them were huddled around a book and taking turns pointing to the pictures to give their own rendition of the story either through words or sounds. It was 101 Dalmations so there was a lot of barking followed by a few “oh no’s” from Elliott who has recently been explosive with his imagination and everything that looks a little scary is met with this expression.  (He brought me a toy spider this morning saying “oh no!” and then chased me with it. Remember, I HATE spiders!!!)

Anyway, the words and sounds were not nearly as important as was the fact that they were all together (something we once thought would never happen again) and they were enjoying a book together by taking turns and sharing. It is amazing what togetherness does for cousins. It helps them to grow, learn, and form true emotional bonds. It brings them comfort and joy in a way that no other relationships can. It strengthens their sense of self and forms their sense of citizenry.

Every day, I get to sneak a little peek into their world. Truly, how blessed am I?!

“Gigi”

Wake Up! Government Reassignment of Children is real!

We wander through this life with the perceptions of a reality that is composed of our own problems, our own challenges, and our own celebrations. We believe what it is that we need to believe to support our decisions and prevent us from taking on the issues of others unless these issues somehow coincide with our own. This is not a mean statement nor one that is accusatory but it is the truth. Have you ever tried to disprove a situation that brought you joy or peace? Of course not! If your belief allows you to sleep at night, then you will work hard to maintain that belief and push aside any evidence that could contradict your belief.

But what if your belief is wrong? What if, by holding so closely to your belief, you actually are bringing other people harm and putting yourself at risk of the same harm? It is a surreal existence. It is a life-altering realization. It is the truth. The things that you believe that you deserve, that you are entitled to, that you should support, may actually be debilitating to others. Then, one day, you will look in the mirror and wonder who is looking back at you.

Society does not need to be pinched to make sure that it is awake. Instead, it needs to be woken up! You believe that you are saving children but you are destroying families. You think that you are better or chosen by God, but God placed these children into their mother’s womb. You think that the world is working in the best interest of the children but it is money, always money, that drives the government’s involvement in the lives of the private citizens.

Children are being hurt. I have seen it first hand. I continue to see the fear and the pain. I know that there is nothing that I can do to undo the year that my grandchildren were held in the state’s captivity but I can assure you that I will do everything in my power to protect them and all children moving forward.

There is a way to go about protecting children without stealing them. There is a way to be a part of the next generation without hindering their lives or mocking the decisions that God made long before governments were formed or systems were in place. This is not a dream, people. This is not a game. I am angry and you, if you choose to wake up from your delusions, should be angry too.

Read the reports. Listen to the mothers who are afraid to give birth because the vultures will be standing outside the delivery room. Know that not every mother on earth is neglectful and abusive but that every mother on earth is at risk for having their children ripped from their arms because someone else wants to have a child or feels entitled to that which is not their own.

The government continues to remove children and reassign them to people that support their agenda. Maybe the foster parents or adoptive parents support the same political party or attend the same religious functions. Perhaps they will raise the children in the mindset of the chosen race or affiliation. Wait…the government would do that?

YES!!!!! Wake up, people! This is happening! This is not a dream! This is the reality!

Please, look around. Shouldn’t fit parents be allowed to raise their children? Shouldn’t expectant mothers be excited about their child rather than looking for alternative birthing options to prevent their newborn from being kidnapped? Shouldn’t we all be protecting children and families?

The evidence is there, do not dismiss it to protect your own reality.

“Gigi”

CPS Expects you to Accept their Power! Do Not!

We expect a lot of things in our lives and, in the same breath, we accept a lot of things to be simply as they are despite our expectations or desires. Some of us expect to be passed over in celebration but accept that it is our role as a human being to encourage that celebration. Others expect to be treated fairly and accept that this is not always the case when dealing with teenagers!

However, these daily and normal expectations come with experiencing life as is intended. For those of us who have experienced life through the pain of a CPS investigation, and for those of you who have yet to experience this atrocity but are likely to do so as their power continues to grow, expectations and acceptance take on a whole new role.

You see CPS targets families who are perceived to be weak. The uneducated, the impoverished, the immigrant, the single parents, are all likely to receive a knock at their door. And do you know what, most of these people, including myself, believe that the government is there to help them out of a bad situation? What is even worse, we may not have viewed the situation as bad before they quickly told us just how much “imminent danger” our lives brought to the children!

But wait, the children are fed, clothed, loved, receiving medical care, receiving education, and happy? They have bonded with their family, have a routine, and present no concern of neglect or abuse in the care of their parent?!

Hmmm, but they are the government. They know things. They have a better way of doing things. They have the power to see the future and, according to this “power” they know that your child is in imminent danger or will be soon in the future!!!!

They word this in a way that foster parents, extended family, and community members believe that this power must be real and that this organization is clearly looking out for the children!

Are you all serious? You seriously believe that there is an organization of people who have such a power yet they don’t use their fortune telling ability to win the lottery or prevent terrorist attacks?

There is a financial incentive for placing children outside of their home. The ability to target families without the ability to fight the system aids in achieving this incentive. To these families, the ones who do not believe that they have the resources to fight, FIND THE RESOURCES! For those who have overcome the power, be the resources! Do not accept their power. Do not accept that you are meant to lose your children. Do not do what they expect you to do! Do not give up!

Do the unexpected: WIN!

“Gigi”

Celebrate Every First! Homecoming Parade!

For most parents and grandparents, you anticipate celebrating certain firsts. In fact, you buy a neat little baby book to document each and every first for the first year of their life. For those of us who have battled with CPS, firsts are different. Firsts happen every day. We may have lost a lot of the typical firsts, but we are blessed to spend the rest of our lives celebrating every single one after that horrific year! I mean, we have celebrated haircuts and holidays so why not the very first parade that one of the children have participated in!?!

So….today, Clarabelle and her mommy climbed aboard the float for her dance classes and cheered in their red attire alongside the other girls and mothers!

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Elliott, my mother, and I stood waiting for her to appear to catch a glimpse of that perfect smile!

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Sissy’s Biggest Fan!

We are so blessed every day! All of us! There is always something to celebrate. There is always something worth shouting from the rooftops! These may seem so small to so many, but to us, these moments are what we fought so hard to get.

What moment are you celebrating today?

“Gigi”

Do not Stop Fighting: They are your Children!

I am a member of several groups on Facebook regarding the fight against CPS. I acknowledge that many of you may still be under the misconception that Child Protective Services is in place to “save” children and, in some rare instances, this is true. However, from our experience and the experiences of many others, there is a broken and corrupt system at play here that is systematically reassigning children for profit. Now, I do not intend to debate with anyone, at least not at this point, the logistics of the system, the money trail, or the abuse in foster care. Instead, I want you all to take a moment and pray for the families who are struggling with losing their children. The mothers who have jumped through the impossible hoops of “improvement plans” only to face termination of their parental rights. The addicts who have gotten clean. Those who have never had a drug problem. The mothers and fathers who have lost their children due to the behaviors of their significant others who they have left at the first sign of trouble.

I read the posts online and I see the despair. I read the articles about mothers and fathers who have taken their own lives in the face of losing their children. Did you know, if they ask for mental health aid during a CPS case that this is used against them to show instability? Would you need therapy if your children were ripped from your dinner table? Would that show you as being unfit or so loving that you cannot imagine your life without your children? Is it wrong that mothers and fathers define their identity as such?

I read of a woman who had been clean from drugs for many years yet, someone accused her of using again. She tested clean but because she had a history of drug use, the state took her children to “be safe” and promised to return them once they were sure that she was clean. Many years later, still fighting the system, she gave up. She gave them what they wanted. She returned to drugs and once they had broken her, they adopted her children to another family.

They will try to break you. They will use every ounce of your past against you. They will bring up things that have nothing to do with your ability to parent. They will make your love for your children look like your weakness or your ability to remain calm look like a lack of caring. They will try everything that they can to keep your children once they have them.

These are the realities of CPS. These are scary facts that may make you wonder how I can say to keep fighting. Why not give up if they are going to keep going? The answer is simple:

These are your children!

Be mad. Be angry. Be hurt. Be sad. But do not alter in your presentation of yourself. Do not be weak inside because they will use it against you. Do not give up! Do not give them what they want, your children, without a fight because there is hope. We are hope. Right now, the children who they tried to steal are eating breakfast and planning out the day. We are still recovering. There are still questions. But we are getting through it as a family. You will too. So please, to the men and women who are considering giving up, who are considering suicide or drugs, your children need to know now, more than ever, that you will not give up on them!

My heart aches for these families. Please, take a moment to educate yourself on what is happening in our country and around the world. Please take a moment to pray for those who are sad and uplift those who need a hand.

Be a friend. Lend an ear. Make a change.

“Gigi”

Fruit Pizza: Why we love it and why we do not eat it!

It was an almost perfect day considering the two weeks prior. Clarabelle splashed in her little pool on the porch while Elliott, still in his sling from his broken femur, sat in his swing and watched his sister play. We had been through a horrendous event followed by more shattering events but we were determined not to let our stress affect the way the children remembered this perfect spring day. pool

I decided that we would make a special treat. I ran to the local grocery store for some supplies. While in line, I got a call from the CPS investigator who stated that she was only needing to verify some details. I tried to minimize the conversation so as to not expose our family crisis to the other people in line and then went on home to enjoy some fruit pizza. 

Oh, we had a blast. Clarabelle ate more fruit as we sat the bowls on the table than ever made it to the sugar cookie crust but the end result was still awesome!

After we ate our treat, I went to take a nap. Naps are a beautiful part of my day. However, it took a long time before I could sleep again because I was awoken to the sound of my daughter’s shaking voice saying, “mom, they are here to take the children. There are cops.” That was the moment our nightmare truly began. That was the moment that I wished that I knew all of the things that I know now. That is the moment that I pray none of you ever have to experience.

While we have made it out of the Hell of CPS, it is moments like these when you realize just how much was taken. From the moments with the kids to the inability to enjoy a favorite treat, we can never undo the damages. However, we can move forward and enjoy every present moment and, perhaps, find a new favorite treat!

Enjoy a slice for me:-)

“Gigi”